sea me

swimming upriver
fighting against the current
with nothing to keep me afloat
in danger of drowning
with every stroke
can barely lift my head
free of the foam
i can feel the sludge
underneath my feet
sucking me in
trying to drag me down
beneath
the waves
crashing over my body
so cold
lacking heat
draining
my energy
in the distance
i see
sailing ships
out looking for me
have i fallen overboard
and drifted away
unable
to navigate
confused by stars
tampered with by the wind